Friday, December 25, 2009
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Friday, December 11, 2009
Nevaeh's adoption journey has been wrought with diverse twists and turns and presently we find ourselves in yet another twist----or was that a turn. We have an interest in your prayers regarding an urgent twist. Please, please keep this in your prayers. We would be ever grateful!
God bless you for caring!
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
In a season of wonder, I wonder. But about other things. Why this? Why that? And I wonder why some things in life can't be easy. It seems as if EVERYTHING is so hard to get through. And one more time, I find myself considering some very profound thoughts. It is the pain and sorrow that we endure that makes the happy times the treasures that they are. God's GREATEST desire for us is not that we be happy but rather that we be like Him and God is LOVE. And the greater our pain, the greater our capacity to love for it is only then that we realize true compassion.
It seems that every time I turn around, the dimensions to Nevaeh's case are ever changing. Hope! Hope lost. Hope anew. Hope lost. HOPE one more time. And........waiting?? Last night was indeed the first of many visits to come according to the court order. God was truly with us and before the evening was through, my dear husband was having prayer with all of us involved! There were things about the evening that were negatives, yet there were positives as well and there are still many unknowns. Now is NOT the time to relax your prayers. PLEASE! God is definitely doing something though we haven't totally figured out what. In the meantime, regardless of a possible new facet yet again, we must continue with the visitation as court ordered. We are exhausted. We are trying to continue with the already tiring schedule of the Christmas season pertaining to our church and the plan eats at the very least 8 hours of time every week from our precious family time. May God hold us all together and grant Mark and I the wisdom to know how to handle the next several months.
Tia shared a song with me last night knowing how that music speaks to me. I fear I will have to replace her CD for wearing out that particular song but it does speak to me and yes, I'll share it with you.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Ever feel like covering your head and sleeping for a very long time? That's where I've been. Not literally, but emotionally. I apologize for not posting sooner, however I could not. I've been praying and processing and the Lord has been helping me to get things in perspective. There are specifics that I know you would like to know that I just cannot share in this manner as Nevaeh's case has been moved to a high profile case and is very sensitive, but I can share that the judge has not made a final call. Suffice it to say that the adoption has been postponed and at this point, we do not know what way the judge will rule. I've cried so many tears that I am amazed to find that I still have more, yet something triggers a thought and I find them running down my cheeks again. I know God interprets those tears when there are simply no words to be spoken. We have been begging God for strength and the wisdom to know how to proceed. We were able to receive some type of reassurance today and we ask that you continue to pray. This is a very serious need and we feel that Nevaeh's life as all she has known is at stake. She stood in the agency office and recited her version of John 3:16. It was understood by everyone and I marveled at how she never hesitated which was not typical for her. She often hesitates to perform before those with whom she is not totally comfortable. She is now 19 Months old yet there is so much more that we want to teach her. The night of the court date we crawled in the van to go home after that special Rebecca made us supper, and Nevaeh went nuts! She was shrieking at her daddy to turn on her current favorite song. She began singing it in a very loud and boisterous voice.
"Roll away - Roll away - Doubts and fears and sadness - All roll away - Roll away - Everytime I call His name - When I'm sad - And all alone - And nothing can move this impossible stone - I just talk to Jesus and my burdens roll away. In this life there are struggles - We all have our share of trials and troubles - MmmHmm - And heartaches along the way - But there is joy and there is comfort in serving a God who's always triumphant - When I talk to Jesus all my burdens roll away. - Jesus knows my condition - He's always aware of the need before I ever mention - Oh yeah - The problems when I pray - But when I speak - He will listen - He longs to hear the cry of His children - When I talk to Jesus all my burdens roll away!"
You can't imagine what that did for us. It has been a rough couple of days but we are doing much better. My family is coming for Thanksgiving! In fact, some of them are here already. My little sister said that while everyone else has been asked via emails and word-of-mouth messages to pray for Judge Cunningham, she believes that is my family's job to be here for us. So as Aaron and Hur lifted and held the arms of Moses in the middle of a raging battle, they have come to raise up and hold the arms of Mark, Laura, Daryl & Robert. I have an awesome family. I know I've said it before but love is truly powerful. And I am so blessed to be a recipient of that kind of love.
As I struggled with the pain from the huge hand that was squeezing and wringing out my heart, this song came to me. I'll share it in it's entirety just in case you're struggling with something yourself and need to remember who you are and why you are.
I have made my choice forever: I will walk with Christ my Lord. Naught from Him my soul can sever While I'm trusting in His word. I the lonely way have taken, Rough and toilsome though it be; And although despised, forsaken, Jesus, I'll go thro' with Thee.
Tho' the garden lies before me, And the scornful judgement hall, Tho' the gloom of deepest midnight Settles round me like a pall, Darkness can affright me never; From Thy presence shadows flee. And if Thou wilt guide me ever, Jesus, I'll go thro' with Thee.
Tho' the earth may rock and tremble, Tho' the sun may hide its face, Tho' my foes be strong and ruthless, Still I dare to trust Thy grace. Tho' the cross my path o'er-shadow, Thou didst bear it once for me; And whate'er the pain or peril, Jesus, I'll go thro' with Thee.
When the conflict here is ended, And the weary journey done; When the last grim foe is conquered, And the final vict'ry won; When the pearly gates swing open, And an entrance full and free Shall be granted to the victors, Jesus, I'll go thro' with Thee.
God bless you all! Please know that our family, extended family, and church family, appreciates your prayers concerning our need. Nevaeh is an established member of our family, church and community and the decision of the judge weighs heavy on many. As we learn more, we will try to continue to update you.
Have a wonderful Thanksgiving!
Friday, November 20, 2009
As I sat in the agency office today talking with the case managers, one spoke up and said, "Y'know, everything is going to be alright. From the very beginning you've had your faith, and God gave you what you asked for even though we told you it just doesn't work that way. Everything is going to work our just fine."
I told them about the prayer circle and they told me to stop before I made them all cry.
May they have no doubt that God is in control when this is over and the dust is settled!
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Monday, November 2, 2009
This is Daryl's first success with a bow. He was hunting alone and did it all by himself. He ran home to get Dad to come and help drag it out as well as use the benefit of the four wheel drive to drive back into the field. He was so winded and pumped when he "busted" in the door, we had to make him stop and say nothing at all for a few minutes just so we could understand him.
Monday, October 19, 2009
Teaching Nevaeh the art of "having a spot of tea" held an incredibly new meaning for me compared to that of my dreams. And I find myself one more time in the time appropriate season for "Counting Your Blessings" discovering anew that I must surely be God's favorite child! (It's okay for you to think that you are His favorite, too.) Here I am - little ole' me - living in my own little piece of God's world trying to make a difference, when God pours out His love in an extra special way yet again.
My God is so incredibly great and I find that He delights in making a statement. He LOVES to hear us say, "WOW! Good job, God!
It's like He gains great satisfaction in putting the frost on our pumpkin, the cherry on our sundae, and the icing on our cake! I am convinced that my God takes great pleasure in acting out the details that make something special, extra special!
God has chosen to make our special extra special by caring for details that would take too much time and space to share in this manner but I would like to tell you that our long awaited news is finally factual and we want to share it with you.
December 14, 2009
.....is the day when Nevaeh will, in the eyes of the law of the land, become a Fultz!
We are all so overwhelmed and happy beyond what words can tell.
And we are abundantly grateful to our gracious God for His abundant blessing in the gift of our daughter. She is definitely the cherry on our sundae and the zip to our zap. We can't imagine our lives lived without her in it. Thank God that we don't have to!
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Making sure the saw is clean and ready for use.
Mark got to pass a trial run on his new saw (which also has a grinder attachment for making burger) when asked to butcher a hog for a church family member.
You can see the concentration on the man in action.
Guess I'll have to get him a white apron now!